✝That is the problem
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I want everything with you. I want the spark and the flame and the ash afterward. I want to burn and be burned. I want to learn what it means to be consumed by something other than my own thoughts. But I do not know how. I do not know the steps. I do not know what to do with my hands or my mouth or myself. I have never been a lover. I do not even know if I can be one.